Monday, June 22, 2009
Anyhow, I did pretty well with following my WW points each day. Eric, Kari and the kids were here for the weekend, so we were definitely out of our routine. I decided that rather than trying to count points (and in turn make myself a complete nutcase) this weekend, that I would instead practice moderation. Looking back on it, while I know I wasn't perfect, I think I was pretty good. I made some good choices (like I didn't touch the chips, I drank lots of water, only had 1 diet soda) and didn't make the get-together all about the food. A huge step . . . we had guests over and I actually got in the pool with Andy. In my bathing suit. I felt completely horrid, but pretended that all was good.
I'm going to a WW meeting tomorrow, instead of today. First of all, I want to experience a different leader. Secondly, Brian is off today and we are lazing around the house this morning recovering from the weekend.
To those of you who are right along side me trying, what has gone right for you this past week?
Monday, June 15, 2009
But, then I remembered that I had written it down here and said that I was going this morning. I knew that I wouldn't be able to justify not going here. So, I went.
It was ugly. But I went.
I'm not sure I'll stick with Monday mornings for the summer. No kidding, next to Andrew I was the youngest person in the room by like 20 years.
But I went.
Nothing has changed. Points still need to be counted. Bagels and chocolate still have a gazillion points.
But I went. The plan is in motion.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
I hate, hate, hate having my picture taken and having to face my fat. However, I really don't want Andrew to look back at his baby and childhood pictures and always be alone in the picture. I want him to see how much fun we had together. Ugh!
I will also be starting on Monday morning, at 9:30. The location is about a 20 mile drive for me, but it is an actual WW center (not a church or hotel with 1 or 2 meetings a week) that has daily meetings offered at several times. This way I won't have an excuse to miss a week if something comes up during my regular time. I'm the all time master of making excuses so I really have to make this as fool proof as possible for me. And Tara, I really like your idea of checking out different meetings to find a good meeting.
Brian has been doing really well since starting the online version of WW. He counts all of his points and plans his menus (and mine too). However, I haven't been counting points so he has really been getting frustrated with me. Finally, yesterday we had it out. As in a discussion. Which I hate. I'm the queen of avoidance as well. I just finally had to tell him to give me my space and let me do things in my own time. I've done nothing to hold him back. I told him that for a few days he just has to be happy with me making better choices.
On Thursday I went to acupuncture again. As always, it was great, but I still have a ways to go until my stress and anxiety is under control. Apparently my pulses are deep "deep and tight" which, in Chinese medicine, means that I'm stressed and anxious. Duh. We are adding some guided meditations to help with this as well.
My next step is to get to the gym and get Andy signed up for child care. I have a feeling I'm going to like this . . .
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
- I can attend traditional meetings. This would be nice because of the face-to-face accountability and since it is summer I really do have time to do this.
- I can do the online version. This would be nice because I can do it in my jammies and be lazy and not have to drive anywhere.
- I can just do it on my own with the materials I already have. This would be nice because I could save my hard earned cash. However, it also holds me much less accountable.
I haven't made a decision at all yet. My excuse has been that I haven't scoped out the availability of in-person meetings. However, even I know that that's a bunch of crap. I'm really just delaying the inevitable, as I have been for almost the past year.
In the meantime, Brian is doing the on-line version and has turned into a complete WW nazi in our home. He even bought a new scale on Sunday, the WW one, that measures to the tenth of a pound. He has been counting points religiously. Me? I say, meh, and eat the meals he fixes for me, all the while pining for ice cream. I will say that I have lost a pound and a half since he started this on Sunday.
So, since I know that the time is here for me to stop making excuses, I will get online and scope out the in-person meetings and make a decision. So, by tomorrow I will have a decision. As for today, I did make it to the store to restock my vitamins and supplements. At least it's something.
By the end of the week I do hope to add to this blog some links to my favorite WW blogs and the site itself so that resources can be in one handy place. I'll eventually add some tickers to track my progress. Oh, I'll also be sharing some of the new recipes we are using, both the good and the back. So, stick around . . . I'm glad to have the company!